First Serious Post Of The Year

I hate my boyfriend's friends.

Apparently they're all jealous of me, and really threatened by the fact that John loves me so much and pays so much attention to me. Well I say, fuck them. They SHOULD be jealous. One of them was like "oh I don't know why you two are together since he can't transfer" and I got INCREDIBLY pissed. Apparently, John was going to tell me himself but was waiting for the right time. Eh. I can't in good conscience be angry at him though, because everything he does, he does because it loves me. It still sucks though.

We had a big huge talk last night about the status of our relationship, and now we're calling each other "beloved" instead of "boyfriend" because it puts less pressure on him to be here for me when he physically can't. He's already feeling less sick.

Sorry if I sound a bit bitter about all of this. I kind of am. We're still together and everything, but... I don't like how much power his friends try to have in this relationship. It's obvious that I'm very threatening to them... but at least John is more on my side of the fence than on theirs. Ugh. I feel like I'm rambling... usually I can articulate my feelings better than this. Maybe it's because I just got out of the shower and I'm still drowsy. Who knows. The bottom line is that John and I redefined our relationship last night, and it brought us closer even though our plans sort of backfired. Besides... he's going to try and get a car over the summer and visit me. =)

Okay, then. Now for the requisite hot guy...

~ PETE BURNS ~What can we possibly say about Pete Burns? Besides being the flamboyant frontman of 80’s sensation Dead Or Alive, Pete is also well known for his forays into junky reality television, having really big lips, suing plastic surgeons, having really big lips, playing gigs at back-alley gay bars… oh, and did I mention having really big lips? Pete is credited with pioneering the whole androgynous look, and while he may have taken it to a bit of an extreme over the past several years or so, Pete still looks as glamorous and rocks just as hard as he ever did in his prime. He can spin me round any day of the week.

EMERGENCY HOT GUYS ALERT!!

Okay, so I was surfing Youtube and I happened to come across a song by a little German band known as Tokio Hotel. The song was "Monsoon," and it was actually not that bad. In fact, I'll go so far as to say I enjoyed it. However, I wasn't half as focused on the music itself as I was on these boys...

~ BILL KAULITZ & TOM KAULITZ ~

These naughty little things happen to be twins, born just 10 minutes apart. Bill Kaulitz is the one in front and is the lead singer, while his brother Tom is the one in back and is the lead guitarist. Bill has the most feminine voice I've ever heard from a male singer, but then again, he is only 19, and those tight jeans don't exactly do wonders for the nads. Tom strikes me as being the fiestier of the pair; the fact that he has his hand crammed halfway down the front of his brother's pants may have something to do with this impression. I have a feeling that these boys will make incest socially acceptable in no time.

There you have it, my friends; the latest developments from the Hot Guy Boot Camp. Now in the spirit of patriotism, go listen to some Tokio Hotel... and by "listen" I mean "have erotic fantasies that, if carried out in real life, would result in a nice long stay in the local penitentiary."

The Blogger's Revenge

Hey all. Okay, so I know I've been pretty unreliable about posting lately... which is why I plan on making a big huge update here, right here. BRACE YOURSELF.

So I'm not going to be home for too much longer, unfortunately. I'm going back to college on the 18th. But hey, all good things must come to an end, right? And while I've enjoyed being home, I think I'm pretty much ready to go back to school and start this new semester, which should be fun. OH! Speaking of which, I have a story...

So I was waiting for WEEKS to get my grades in, right? My family and I were all totally anxious about it so I decided to just email the registrar and ask what's up. So she wound up emailing them to me, and HOLY SHIT were we all shocked. I did AMAZINGLY. Seriously, this feels amazing because not only does it feel like this whole "college" thing has been totally validated for me (I got an A in Intro to Fiction Writing, which is what I hope to be doing for a living), it makes me feel a lot better about the years to come because now I know I can do it. It feels pretty good.

But that's not the only reason I have to be happy. John and I are still together, and we're doing really well. It's already going to be two months soon... and I'm learning not to be so paranoid and jealous and generally weird about things, because I do love him so much and I really want this relationship to turn into something truly deep and meaningful. I can't wait for when he comes down here; it'll be amazing to get to see him every day, and it'll hopefully make our relationship that much stronger.

Now, then... let's get on to something a bit more political. Namely, the Gaza War. Yes, I know that the poor innocent civilians in Gaza are getting hurt, but what about the poor innocent Israeli civilians who have been fighting for their very right to EXIST pretty much since the creation of Israel? Where is the outrage at Hamas, or the militant extremist wings of the PLO, or the countless Arab governments that are built on these barbarian principles of hatred and violence? I'm glad Israel is finally standing up for itself instead of sucking the proverbial cock of the international community. Hey, UN, back off! Let Israel handle ITSELF. It's more than capable of demolishing the entire Middle East if need be (which, quite frankly, wouldn't be a bad idea), and it has more than a right to defend itself. Its military response was perfectly justifed, and long overdue. Hamas should have listened to Egypt's warnings about provoking Israel. I can't believe that I agree with Bush on this issue... Israel is totally justified in everything it's doing, and I for one fully support its actions.

On a lighter note, I officially have every song that Dead or Alive has ever released, and it only took me the whole weekend to download them all! This has been quite a productive weekend, I must say. Oh, and Enya songs seem to make very good remixes... go figure.

By the way... I've been doing searches for hot celebrities, but I don't think it's truly fair for me to keep them all to myself, so I'm going to post a picture of a hot guy on every future post. Today's hot guy is...

~ JEREMY SUMPTER ~

Ah, yes. Jeremy Sumpter. Most famous for playing a half-naked Peter Pan in that movie several years ago (which somehow I've never seen), and a porn-addicted teen in one of those crappy Lifetime movies. His acting chops are certainly not in question, but what is it about Jeremy that makes him so delicious? Is it his innocent face? His tan body? His chiseled teenage abs? His windswept hair? I could list a shitload of things, but what's really hot is that he's a surfer. HELL YES. I know, everyone loves those surfer boys. But just the thought of our naive little Peter Pan in a wetsuit, glistening under that California sun, makes me shiver. Ooooh, I smell fanart!

There you have it, my loves... THE TRIUMPHANT RETURN OF MEEEEEEE!! Until next time, kids.

A Clean Slate

Happy New Year! Here's hoping 2009 is a hell of a lot better than 2008 was. I mean come on, we've got President Barack Obama this time around... is it too good to be true? I suppose we'll just have to wait and see.

John went to Boston for New Year's Eve, which isn't all that far from him anyway. I didn't really do anything... just stayed home with my mom and hung out. It was fun, though; I never really cared much about New Year's to be perfectly honest, so I'm quite content to just stay at home and play Metroid: Zero Mission (I beat Kraid today; woo!).

So yeah... that's all for now. See you later!

The Wheel Turns

Just wanted to say... HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

=)

Spoils Of War

So in retrospect, I made out like a fucking bandit this year. Here's everything I got...

• $125 in checks, which will go straight to my checking account, and $175 in cash, which will go straight to my wallet for prompt splurging!
• A really really warm pair of pants, which I desperately needed
• A stuffed dragon

The stuffed dragon is quite interesting, because with it came the ability for me to select a star - a real, actual star - and name it. I selected one in Pegasus (the very tip of the front hoof) and named it Jinnsha, a combination of me and John's pet names for each other, in tribute to our relationship. He promptly freaked out (in a positive way) which made me giggle because of how cute it was, and also because he was so adamant about not wanting presents. I told him to consider my naming of the star his present, and he pretty much almost cried. So yeah. I love him lots. <3 This was actually a pretty meaningful holiday season. Hope yours were as merry as mine!

Deck Those Motherfuckin' Halls, Bitches

First off, let me begin by saying...

HAPPY HOLIDAYS*
*includes Christmas, Hanukkah, Kwanzaa, Ramadan, or whatever the hell else you do for the Winter Solstice.

Ok, now that I have that all out of my system, let's get down to the bare bones, shall we?

Me and John will have been together for a whole month on January 1. This means so much to me because this is my longest meaningful relationship in about half a year. I honestly feel so good about this relationship. Emotionally, I think it'll last a while. Intellectually, I feel the same way. VERY RARELY do my emotional side and intellectual side ever agree. He fully intends on transferring to my college as soon as the Fall 2009 semester, I've been having dreams about him and us pretty much every night... I feel hesitant to think that this relationship will last a long time and be successful and all that good stuff, though; probably because I've been hurt so much in the past. Oh, well. I'm trying to not think too much about it and just take it one day at a time, which is what I've been doing. But at the same time, we both want the same things and have the same goals for this relationship, so we do have plans. I'm just not stressing out anymore. =) And it feels amazing.

I'm happy to be home with my family. My mom, my dad, my brother Brian, Gram, and my kitties!!! Things are pretty swell. Oh, and I installed the Sims 2 and all its expansions on my laptop, which runs super amazingly due to my dual processor and modern graphics card. If there's one thing my dad knows how to do, it's design a computer (he customized all the specs for my laptop for me).

Well, that's all for now, my lovelies. Just wanted to update y'all on the current state of affairs. Have a good holiday and all that jazz! GET AWESOME PRESENTS!

This Boy Is Fantastic

I'm sorry, but I just need to be sappy for a while about how much I love John. He's quite possibly the best boyfriend I've ever had.

Here's an excerpt from an AIM conversation...

Matt: You have officially made my entire weekend perfect just by showing up lol
John: Heh, you ended my suffering, I thought it impossible~
John: My feet dun even hurt anymore :3
John: First time I've smiled since Friday XDDDD

Isn't he cute? I love him. He is seriously the perfect guy for me to be with. And he's an Aquarius, which is even better... Aries and Aquarius are pretty damn compatible.

So yeah. Just wanted to brag about happy I (finally) am. This one will last for a long time. We're already halfway to a month; only a couple more weeks to go! =D

Hurrah!

Holy Crap...

Yeah. It's been a fucked up couple of weeks.

We had a two-day blackout at college due to this horrific ice storm, which knocked power out for nearly all of New England (thankfully Connecticut wasn't affected). Anyway, everything was pretty much iced over for a couple of days. No electricity, no plumbing, no heat... nada. I'm glad to be out of that hell hole and back at home for a month.

My mom graduated from her massage therapy school! She already got a job offer from one of the most prominent spas in the state of Connecticut, and she's probably going to take it. I'm glad that she's finally found what she was meant to do and is happy doing it (and earning a dollar or two in the process).

Oh, and the most important news of all... I have a new boyfriend. His name is John Lyndon-Day Fratto III, but he also has a rather large array of random nicknames like Paz, Zax, and Lover Jinn (which is my special pet name for him). He lives in Massachusetts and is going to college in Vermont right now, but plans on transferring to Chester (my college, woot!) as soon as the Fall 2009 semester. We've been dating for about two weeks, but we've known each other for several months prior to dating, so we're taking things at a pretty healthy pace. So far, so good... here's hoping this one lasts (forever and ever!).

Anyway, there's my update. Sorry that it's a bit later that I would have hoped, but like I said... it's been a fucked up couple of weeks. Until next time, loves... ta~ta for now!

Home Sweet Home...?

Back at college after a restful break... I have some shit to do now that I'm back, but I'll update in detail later. News is abundant, trust me.